Lurusin niat

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul, our heart to make us whole; sends us pain so we can be stronger, failure so we can be humble, illness so we can take better care of ourselves; takes something away from us so we can learn the value of all we have.

Allah test us with suffering and sorrow, not to punish, but to help us meet tomorrow

Sedang punya banyak rencana,
banyak keinginan, banyak harapan.
Gak salah sih, cuma kurang aja ikhtiarnya.
Gak salah sih, cuma kurang percaya aja sama kekuatan doa.

"Gw mah straight-edger," kata saya beberapa minggu yang lalu. Dan kemudian diiringi dengan muka heran dan tak terima salah seorang teman dekat.
Dan kemudian buru-buru saya tambahkan "Iyah, lurus di gray area"
barulah muka dia terlihat puas, setuju dan mengamini. Damn.

Mau lurusin niat,
yah walaupun kesananya harus belok2 dikit
ngesot sana sini,
ngepot kanan kiri
Yang penting kan niatnya udah lurus

Ayo tanamkan kepercayaan dalam hati,
kalau Tuhan selalu menemani
kalau Tuhan itu baik hati
kalau Tuhan itu tidak tega menyakiti

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
watch me God, Imma make You proud and smile,
and maybe You will say to all who underestimate me
"that's my girl!"

I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best
But it ain't good enough
Shunned by the world
If I don't succeed
Cause I ain't good
But He still loves me

(Beyonce and Walter Williams Sr, He Still Loves Me)

Hey kamu

Hey langit,
Birunya dirimu hanya dapat terlihat saat aku menengadah

Hey angin,
Desiranmu yang sejuk itu terlalu cepat pergi
Aku selalu gagal menyentuh dan meraihmu

Hey surya,
Sinarmu terlalu terang benderang,
jika ingin berada di dekatmu,
aku harus menutup mata

Hey ombak,
Kau terlalu cepat berlari ke laut
secepat apapun aku berenang,
aku tetap tak bisa mengejarmu

Kenapa kalian tidak mengalah sedikit?

Merunduklah sedikit, sehingga aku tak perlu menengadah
Berputarlah sedikit agar aku dapat meraih
Redupkanlah sedikit, sehingga aku dapat membuka mata
Diamlah disini sejenak saat kumulai mengejar

Mungkin sulit,
tapi kenapa tidak kau coba?

home

Home is where the heart is...

Just had kinda conversation about the place that we'll miss so much, a place where we belong. And then, we reach the point that make me wondering where the place that I belong is. Is it my house right now? Well, it's just house, not home. So I guess even the house I live in is not a place where I belong.

A chair is still a chair
Even when there's no one sittin' there
But a chair is not a house
And a house is not a home
When there's no one there to hold you tight
And no one there you can kiss goodnight

A room is a still a room
Even when there's nothin' there but gloom
But a room is not a house
And a house is not a home
When the two of us are far apart
And one of us has a broken heart

(Luther Vandross, A House Is Not A Home)

Madonna, Like A Prayer

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
Down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing
I have no choice, I hear your voice
Feels like flying
I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me

Like a child you whisper softly to me
You're in control just like a child
Now I'm dancing
It's like a dream, no end and no beginning
You're here with me, it's like a dream
Let the choir sing

Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me
You are a mystery
Just like a dream,
You are not what you seem
Just like prayer
No choice
Your voice can take me there

baru tau ini lagu madonna, selama ini gw kira ini lagu Rufio.
Muahahhaha, dogol...
eniwei, yang dinyanyiin sama Glee Cast keren pol...
Suara si Mercedes berhasil bikin gw merinding...

rainy morning made me so damn romantic

The chill of this windy night brings me to you
Reminds me of how we love the Friday evening
Not because of the traffic nor the rains
It's your warm embrace that I could remember

The silvery moonlight brings me to you
Do you still remember how we love to watch the sky?
Feel the solitude of the moon
adore, the sparkling light surrounds it

The starless night sky brings me to you
Cause our night skies often appear without stars
And I love how we still love our jealous sky
Neglect the fact that they could be prettier

I love all the nights, all the times with you
starred-nights look darn awful without you
Windy night brings infinite sadness without you
Lonely moonlight seems so pathetic without you

I need you,
to spend all the nights

Andrea Bocelli, Somos Novios

Somos novios
Pues, los dos sentimos mutuo amor
profundo
Y con eso
Ya ganamos lo más grande
de este mundo

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios, nos deseamos
Y hasta veces sin motivos,
sin razón
Nos enojamos

Somos novios
Mantenemos un cariño limpio y puro
Como todos
Procuramos el momento más oscuro

Para hablarnos,
Para darnos el más dulce
de los besos
Recordar de que color
son los cerezos
Sin hacer más comentarios
Somos novios

It's just impossible

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios, nos deseamos
Y hasta veces sin motivos,
sin razón
Nos enojamos
sin motivos, sin razón

Somos novios
Mantenemos un cariño limpio y puro
Como todos, como todos
Procuramos el momento más oscuro

Para hablarnos,
Para darnos el más dulce
de los besos
Recordar de que color
son los cerezos
Sin hacer más comentarios
Somos novios

Somos novios
Siempre novios
Somos novios

Silent shining night

Last night I went to Shining Light’s home. Well for those who don’t know who Shining Light is, he was the love of my life, my life partner. Well in other cheesy and trashy word, he was my ex boyfriend. Ah, how I hate the word of boyfriend. It sounds so cheap as hell. “Dia cowok gue”, “Dia pacar gue”. I hate saying those words.

That’s why I prefer “Lover” to “Boyfriend”.

Okay anyway… Seeing him again right now, just reminds me how much I loved him, how much he meant to me, how much he changed my life, how he rocked my days. Well I’m not bragging here, but really, he changes me, a lot.

I was such a bitch. A fucking bitch. It doesn’t mean that I love walking around naked or wearing sexy clothes, or fuck any guys I met or something like that. I just love to judge people, such as: clubbers are brainless, alcohol just for butthead, and many shitty thoughts like that. But he widened my point of view, made me think that some things that I don’t like are not bad, not always bad. People do bad things because of their reasons, maybe it’s not right, but they have the reasons that we barely even know.

It’s true that we broke up, we separated, and we are not an item anymore. He’s not my life partner anymore, but he always is my Shining Light.

When we were at the car, listened to Brandon Flowers’ song, I thought I would apologize, said sorry for being such a jerk for a very long time. But until we arrived at my home, and he was about to go, I have no courage, I have no gut at all to say sorry. Haha, am I gonna be pathetic for the rest of my life?

At the end of that pretty and silent night, he said “Terima kasih buat semuanya, dan maaf buat semuanya,”

And I just could reply, “Maaf juga untuk semuanya,”

Damn, why on earth he always knows what words I want to hear and what I want to say? He said that he knows what I'm made of. Hmm, maybe it's true...

I can’t say thank you to you Shining Light, but I will someday when we meet again.

Thank you for all the shining lights given to me.

Look back in silence
The cradle of your whole life
There in the distance
Losing its greatest pride
Nothing is easy, nothing is sacred, why?
Where did the bow break?
It happened before your time

And there were people there
Lovely as you'd ever care
Tonight, baby, you can start again
Laughing in the open air
Have yourself another dream
Tonight, baby, we can start again

Only the young can break away, break away
Lost when the wind blows, on your own
Only the young can break away, break away
Lost when the wind blows, on your own

(Brandon Flowers, Only the Young)