Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Under the Rose, by Akari Funato

Lagi suka banget sama komik ini. Pertama kali ngeliat komik ini gak terlalu berminat, hehe... Level comic beneran harus belajar gimana cara buat ringkasan cerita yang dicetak di belakang cover buku supaya bisa menarik perhatian dan minat. Karena sumpah, ringkasan ceritanya biasa banget...

Tapi karena waktu itu lagi gak ada bacaan, gw belilah kedua volume komik itu. Dan begitu gw baca volume pertama, dammit, I totally in love with this manga!

Settingnya adalah Inggris di Victorian Era, dan menceritakan keluarga Count Roland. Eh nggak deng, awalnya menceritakan kisah penyelidikan Linus King, anak sulung dari keluarga Marquis King, Grace King dengan Count Roland. Ia datang ke kastil Count Roland untuk menyelidiki kematian ibunya, Grace King yang merupakan seorang governess (guru privat perempuan) keluarga Count Roland itu.

Ada yang bilang kecelakaan. Tapi entah kenapa, si Linus yakin banget kalau ibunya itu mati dibunuh oleh salah satu penghuni kastil Roland. Bukan gak beralasan sih, soalnya si Count Roland itu punya istri sah yang bernama Anna. Jadi mulailah dia berspekulasi bahwa bisa saja pembunuhnya itu Anna, istri resmi Count Roland, atau Count Roland sendiri setelah tahu bahwa Linus dan Lawrence itu bukan anak dari Count Roland, tapi anak dari Grace King dengan temannya yang seorang penyair.

Tapi setelah penyelidikan yang lumayan panjang, barulah ketahuan kalau Grace King itu bunuh diri pada saat berada di bawah pengaruh opium. Dan kenapa dia bunuh diri? Karena dia menerima surat dari Linus yang mencaci dia.

Jadi yah bisa dibilang pembunuh ibu dari Linus dan Lawrence King itu ya Linus sendiri.

Tapi kita juga gak bisa menyalahkan Linus, karena kita bisa ngeliat bahwa sikap kerasnya itu adalah karena didikan kakeknya yang sangat menjunjung tinggi kehormatan keluarga. Kita juga gak bisa menyalahkan Grace King, karena sebenarnya dia sangat sangat baik, tapi penolakan yang dilakukan oleh ayah dan anaknya sendiri berpengaruh besar pada mentalnya.

Satu yang sangat sangat gw suka dari komik ini adalah, komik ini anti hero. Gak ada yang benar-benar jahat, gak ada yang benar-benar baik.

Adik Count Roland bisa sangat jahat adalah karena ia sangat ingin menjaga kenangan tentang keluarga itu, eskpresi kesepiannya setelah orang tua dan hampir semua saudara kandungnya meninggal karena kecelakaan dan disusul dengan kematian suaminya. Istri Count Roland, Countess Anna Roland yang selalu menyendiri dan keras juga ternyata punya cerita sendiri.

Ini seperti menemukan novel anti hero di jaman merebaknya Leo Tolstoy! Seperti menonton Watchmen di tengah gempuran Batman, Superman, dan Spiderman


Under the Rose 1














Under the Rose 6, latest volume in Japan...

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I could see God smiles at me :-)

Have you ever ever wonder how much God love you?
I often wonder about that, all the time...
I mean, how could God still love me, even when I leave God just to save my pride?
How could God love me even when I curse God to hell? (I know it sounds silly, but I did)
How could God still love me even I lose my faith in Him?

If you ask me how I could know God still love me,
well maybe I'm idiot, but not that idiot to not realize God loves me more than anything else in this darn world, fufufu...
People come and go, but God stay here,
embrace me so tight

God still let me breathe,
still give me strength even when I thought I don't have it anymore
God still give me nice people around me,
people who will take care of me when I don't want to do it anymore...

When God takes the one I loved, God gives me another one
When God takes something from me, then gives me the better thing for me...
Such a generous dude, isn't He? ;-)

God, even You're so damn high above,
I know You still smile for me
Please stay there,
I will smile for You too!

James Morrison, Wonderful World


I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
Oh, we could start again

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
I can't feel it right now
I got all the right clothes to wear
I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
When you're with me

Saturday, March 20, 2010

abaikan


Mencari sosokmu dengan mataku
Mengejar bayangmu dengan asaku
Mengingat dirimu di seluruh khayalku
Menunggumu di sudut hatiku


Memeluk hatimu dengan segala asa
Merindukanmu dengan sepenuh rasa
Mengharapkanmu di saat kau tiada
meski saat kau ingin aku tiada

Jika asa ini tidak untuk dijawab
mengapa harus dipertanyakan?
Jika rasa ini tidak untuk dibalas
mengapa tidak kau biarkan?

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Kamu apa kabar?

Bagaimana langitmu hari ini?
Apakah kelabu seperti milikku?
Ataukah biru seperti saat aku bersamamu?

Bagaimana malammu kini?
Apakah mencekam seperti malamku?
Atau sehangat pagi seperti malamku dulu?

Bagaimana hatimu kini?
Apakah lebam membiru sepertiku?
Atau mungkin merah jambu sepertiku dulu?

Semoga kamu tahu maksudku,
cuma mau tahu kabar kamu...

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Naif - Johan dan Enny


Hei kamu yang di belakang situ
Ku ingin engkau tahu
Bila dikau menutup pintu
Ku kan tetap menunggu

Usah kau resah selalu
Yang lalu biar berlalu

Selama mentari menyinari dunia fana ini
Kuharap tak kau tutup pintu
Biarkan 'ku termangu

Yang Lalu Telah Berlalu …
Usah Kau Ragukanku

Jalan kita masih panjang
Biar terus berjalan
Tolong Tuhan bantu hamba
Jangan kau buat sirna
Sirna...

Hei kamu yang dibalik pintu
Ku ingin engkau tahu
Bila saat pintu kau buka
Ku akan tetap ada

Usah kau resah selalu
Yang lalu biar berlalu
Jangan kau ragukanku

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Gratitude

This is just a simple note for you
Hope this could be the last one about you
Well, I just want to thank you

Thank you for being so close to me
Thank you for taking care of me
Thank you for being beside me

Thank you for all those days
Thank you for brightening my days
Thank you for all the laughters

Thank you for giving me strength
Thank you for giving me felicity
Thank you for giving me grace

Thank you for all the times
Thank you for all the moments
Thank you for all the memories

Thank you for loving me

Sunday, March 7, 2010

determined or persistent

I am here while you are there
Should I standing all alone here
and just waiting for you to come over
or maybe I need to stop and surrender?

Seeing you in distance is too hurtful
Being too close to you is hurting too
But being apart is killing me too
So let me love all the things in you

Even I know my feeling is out of line
But I can't keep you out of my mind
I wanna love you all the time
Not now, but someday in one right time

But well,
In the end,
It's just my selfish and wishful thinking

Saturday, March 6, 2010

you and you and you, will always be you


I could give you nothing but my heart
A heart that will always embrace yours

I could do nothing but to love you
A love that I can't resist anymore

I could say nothing but I love you
These honest words are said too much,
but never enough

Holy crap, it hurts!